Thursday, January 28, 2010

thursday's thirteen

1.) first and foremost, i'm not going to lie...this week has been a bit rough. over the weekend, we found out that one of our college friends had passed away. finding out the news felt like someone punched me in the stomach. we've all known each other for over 10 years now, and this is the first time our family of friends has had to deal with something this tragic. for days and even now, i still can't begin to wrap my mind around all of it. how young. how surreal. blech. it makes me sick.

2.) yesterday, we went to her funeral. i loathe funerals. i know, who doesn't? but seriously. so many thoughts ran through my head. they started singing, "amazing grace" and the flood gates exploded. i don't like it when people see me cry. and moreover, i really don't like seeing others cry. because if ever there were a time where i clam up and get super awkward, this is the prime time. i don't know what to say/do/react. like i'm incompetent and helpless so we all just stand there letting the emotions run wild.

3.) on the flip side, all of this has made me realize something. how blessed i am. to have friends within every layer of the onion (from my core handful to the outer realm) who honestly care and love me for who i am. and most importantly, for jay and the family we have started. i don't know what i did to deserve the life i have, but i'm going to grasp it as tight as i can and reciprocate my efforts to those who care. to let everyone know how much they mean to me because you never know when it may be the last time you see them.

4.) (this will be my last "debbie downer" post, i swear.) we've been to 3 funerals in the last 3 months...i've only been to 6 total in my life which includes the last three. the two before this one, i had finally felt that i had come to terms with death. that it was simply life's cycle and inevitable. but this last one just hardly seems fair...

5.) okay whew, glad i got that out of my system. oddly enough, this blog provides a kind of therapy for me. like all my thoughts that keep circling around on the hamster wheel in my head, have been pushed out and done away with. feels relieving. bring me back the chipper kimtastic. here i am!

6.) as of this week, the mabster's gymnastics class has been moved to tuesday nights. tuesday is also when she has dance class in the morning. needless to say, she rocks her leotard all day and is in girly girl bliss. favorite day? it's a given.

7.) why is it that some days the kids won't touch a thing, and the next, they are eating through the walls. growth spurt, much?

8.) this weekend, we'll be celebrating the best husband and father in the world's birthday. he'll be turning 29 (riding the cusp of his dirty thirties) on saturday, and of course we will be carousing in a drunken fashion, home field style. after the week i've had, i NEED a drink! happy birthday, jay!! i love you with all my heart.

9.) "Better to remain silent and be thought dumb, than to open your mouth and remove all doubt." - Abraham Lincoln

10.) i love when the mabster asks, "are you thinking what i'm thinking?" hmmm. possibly. maybe. um, no.

11.) four birthday functions this weekend...looks like january is a good month for busting out some babies. sheesh.

12.) UAB basketball is kickin some arse and taking names, no doubt. we are ranked #1 in C-USA with the best record in school history (18-2). BOOYAH!!

and lastly,

13.) alert the press: mommy experimented and cooked with absolutely no recipe the other night. we all sat down at the dinner table when the mabster took her first bite and said, "mmmm." admittedly i told her to say, "this dinner is delicious, mommy!"...that's not cheating is it?

3 comments:

*Yankee Belle* said...

#3 is so true. xoxo

Becca said...

#3 for me too! smooches, love you, mean it!

Kim said...

love you, britches too! XOXO